One of the things I realized after posting last week was that I made no mention of whether I had finished the draft during April Camp Nano. I could have edited the post, or commented giving that information. Instead, I waited, so I’d have something to report today. On time, even!
No, I didn’t end up finishing the draft. I got close, and my hope by not including it last week would be that I’d have gotten to wrap things up by the time I posted about it. But that hasn’t been the case. As mentioned last time, my kids are in sports, there have been a lot of events I’ve attended virtually, and while failing miserably at it, I’ve tried to sleep better.
I recognize that I’ve allowed myself to slip out of the writing habit, particularly since I don’t have a specific deadline. It’s one thing to set up one on my own, but the accountability of a writing event makes it easier for me. It motivates me.
And if that didn’t make me feel enough like I’m falling down on the job, I have another round of critique coming up soon. I have 20 days to be on time to submit my next piece. And while that’s a deadline, with so much else going on right now (thank you very much, neighborhood garage sale that I don’t personally want to participate in but which will lead to us getting some unused items out of our house), and so little free time with the kids on reduced time at school…
But, really, I need to stop whining. I’ve gotten through crunches like this in the past. I’m in a funk (as evidenced by many blog posts over the past few months, if not longer). I’m also tired. There are times when I get myself to work through that, and other times I allow for rest. It’s just a matter of figuring out which way I should lean for the best results.